Been saving up for the whole year
But ended up using it for education
It was all good at first
Not until the 5 digits of saving turns to three.
It was all good that weekend
When they decided to argue
And then he started banging his head
And I witnessed how he almost killed himself.
I forgot about someone’s cancer
I forgot our promise to tour somewhere
And when they reminded me of it
I forgot I was broke… and broken.
Everyone was so bright and smiles
But I was still afraid of everything
What scares me most is when I laugh violently
Just to hide all the pain building up inside me.
-Jane Han Poo